sorrows endure in the night

im beginning to get so pissed off with ma'self..

i can control my emotions no more..

and i couldn't care less..

for now.

what's wrong with me?

this dec really.. su*ks..

inactive blogger

blogger status: very inactive

been really busy with work at childcare & school exams (-.-)zz

..and angrifying some very free frog HAHA.

talking abt frogs..

yesterday nite got one very lost "frog" CROAKING in de drainage behind my hse..

in de middle of nite~~

& tt frog friend of mine happen to be doing de same thing yesterday nite..

but in a more refined way..

using sms.

i assume they have de SAME genes.

equally noisy.

enter de frog's blog at ur own risk HERE

*psst de brown polkadot frog

don't you whine

my feet are so numb. walked de whole day in town with jolene. lucky her. found a job at hsbc. IN A BANK. "money money money.." ($_$) wads more she's leaving for hongkong again tmr. HOW LUCKY IS THAT!? *sihui waves and screams: get me something again yea~* heheh.

heys if u gals are going somewhere on a holiday. don come back empty handed like CREAM orite! :P

hmpf. i so wanna go on a holiday~ :(

oH i saw something truly angelic today..


zoom in..



zoom zoom..



this is for a gd cause! buy an angel for SIHUI at $30. all collections donated to the MILKYWAY. i think its an association for needy kids. go see see at wisma level 1.

*pls use the escalator to get to the outside of orchard mrt and enter by wisma main entrance. alot of ppl still donno de basement kena blocked for renovation. haiyo~

new skin - Goong

wee~

i love Goong.



i love Kim Jeong Hoon even more.



lol.

numb

everything's been so haywirely awfully B A D lately. feeling so suffocated and insecured abt certain things. all i do is keep questioning myself. feel so so numb now. i hope someone gimme an anaesthetic (though im so afraid of needles) and put me to temporary sleep mode.

whoever said it's gonna be easy, right?

im supposed to be able to share these with someone.. someone i feel so distant abt now.. this is when a blog comes in so handy..

somebody gimme a hug.. :'(

bcos absence makes the heart grow fonder..

bcos absence makes the heart grow fonder..

doesnt means that distance will too..

bcos distance makes the heart grow fonder..

for other people..

heheh..

***

i admire Joan. she's a classmate of mine at mmi. she's a girl who's full of energy, bubbly.. extremely, in fact.. and her faith & love for God leave me in awe. what i admire her is actually her conviction in her religion.

my clique always have makan gatherings during break and after school. Relationship is our hot topic; work being the 2nd. Ha.

once, she shared about the prob she faced in her relationship. amidst the complications, she persuaded her bf to pray together with her and after that they felt better. the coolest thing i heard is.. bcos they did not priortize God as their first, God reminded His presence through putting both of them to this "test". i rmbered she said, if a couple break up, it's the both of them who have decided to let go of God's hands even if they are meant to be together.

and even if u don't know that ur bf cheats on you, God knows. cool right. so dont be so hard on urself trying to figure whether ur bf's cheating on u.. let him be.. bcos God's looking. heheh.

i envy christian couples or rather, couples who believe in God. it's just like having a vegetarian bf.. both have the same faith in the same thing and works towards fulfilling it.. how cool is that..


***

back with an open heart

Happy Children's Day.

on hiatus

blog's rotting.

fungi's growing.

why aint i writing.

cos life's tiring.

somewhere only we know

i so wanna watch the lake house! de trailer's so beautiful if u've seen it. its a story abt 2 ppl (starring keanu reaves & sandra bullock) living in 2 different years at de same time. how they knew each is via de lake house. & they actually fell in love with each other thru writing letters n putting it in de mailbox outside de house. "how do u hold on to someone you've never met?" awh~ must watch of the month lah!

i haven watched it thou. ha. supposed to be today.. hai. nvm.

im like super slack today. did nothing worth remembering. i simply waste my day on de net. hai. i haven even finish my assignment. great. its more like i dont care.

anyways school's fun cos i just finished my music & movement module. its taxing cos dis lecturer taking our module is de very hands-on kinda person. & we actually did a chinese fan dance. gosh i DANCED. its fun lah. ha.


the fan dance dance crew

Fantabulous 5

you char kway.degreat.lynnie.jasmine.joan


oh & I MISS a couple of people...

Shiling +> hope everything's back to normal thou it'll nv be de same as it used to be. be happy. im oways here for you.

Creamy +> jiayou no matter how 'donuts' sch life seems. glad ur mates took over my "position" but u know i can never be replaced.. don't you? muahaha~

Siewmay +> i believe dat u can befriend wonderful ppl in ur uni. don't worry!

Jessica +> cheer up gal! don't like stoopit ppl affect ur mood. ;)

Diana +> be very very xin-fu despite de distance yeah. meet up often!

Rebbie +> take gd care of ur things can. keep buying things to replace spoilt
ones. tsk tsk. so chor lor *shakes head* must miss me hor! cry more.

& more messages..

Weixiang +> rmb to give urself a break! smile more, think less! make de most of ur present!

Weekiat +> hope to see u more after NDP ok!

Eric kor +> i nv forget u k. yuan wang ah lol. meet up soon so can catch up a lil ya!

& may god bless all of yall & ppl who i've not mentioned..

u know i love u too. hehe.

a tribute to reb

*dedicated to reb - ur fave song

a tribute to my [idiotic] twin



mascots of me & rebbie. hehe. dis twinnie of mine is de absolute opposite of me. sunny funky bikini girl. but yet we're so EEErie-ly close.

the 10 similarities abt de twinnie
~ capricorns (we're a year + a wk apart)
~ teachers-to-be
~ we eat verrry little
~ best (window) shopping partners
~ heeren's our fave shopping hunt
~ we are always late for classes
~ love 'hello panda'
~ crazy abt MILO PENG (Superband)
~ clip-on-holics (we dont have pierced ears but we love ear rings!)
~ shady ladies (we love SHADES!)

definitely gonna miss her presence. (today's her last day at MMI) *sigh* nobody to scold me "IDIOT" anymore.

AARRCHOOO~!

she must be scolding "IDIOT LEH YOU" by now~ vicious aint she?

naive and dumb headed

huidenaive+dumb.headed



i wished u could scold me.
i wished u could be mad at me.
i wished u could vent ur frustrations on me.

i dont have any bad intentions.
i thought it could be good in the long run.
i was too naive and dumb headed.
why did u choose to listen to me?

im sorry.

i shouldn't have left u in a lurch when u offered to send me home.
but i can't stand u not giving me any reasons why u chose to be silent.
what were u unhappy with?
me spending money?
or was it bcos i gave u a wrong advise?

im sorry.

im really sorry.

growing up

CREAMY, i hope u had a great bday dis year~
thou not as happening & emo as de previous yr. haha.

oh i so wanna advertise for BAKERZIN.
their cakes are so fanta-bulously kewl & yummy.
go get 1 for ur loved ones bday.
outlets at takashimaya B1;
orchard atrium (building nxt to PS);
raffles city near robinsons adidas.

just look at dis..

pls wipe off ur saliva. LOL.

cream is one lucky girl..

to have such a nicey fwen like muah..

slurps~

20 years OLDD.

GEE.

cream: have i grown prettier and brainier now dat im older?

*hui shooks her head*
trust me.
muahaha~

a broke-person's gift is oways a useful gift.

one for cream; one for her future-atm. LOL.

and i so believe in hao ren mei hao bao

oh-bay-som & i lost. so i had to finish de remains of de cake.

BURP~ super filling for a threesome.

and like dats not bad enough for my digestive system.
cream decided to pang-seh us.
*boiling point*
cos her church frens oso wanna celebrate for her. :(
alwight at least her its on a first-come-first-served basis.
haha.

then shiling & i did some window shopping & alot of talking.
de talking kinda affected my perspective on relationships & de world.
just hope dat someone is wise & decisive enough.
heart breakers will be blacklisted.

im so drained.
(-.-)zZ

still havent gone out with jolene, jessica, siewmay etc.
sorrie girls.
will plan with yall again.
SOON.
miss ya all.

More to Life

"There's gotta be more to life~" Stacie Orrico



i feel so drained. oways reaching home very late this week cos went out to play like nobudy's business. haha. i am ENJOYing life at de moment.

de kbox session with lynn n reb was kewl. i tot reb's voice suit english songs best. budden de english pop mtv like super pirated lah. boo~

i like de shin n energy part cos can act punk rock and do some screaming. haha. i think im too crazy for reb n lynn. haha. therefore i declare siewmay my best screaming partner in kbox. lol.


muahaha~


goofy cuties~

yesterday during class, we had a "project runway" show going on. just that we're more environmentally friendly. we used newspaper. and mediacorp was there too. how kewl is dat?! wahaha. but its not bcos dey were filming de singapore-edition project runway. just that MMI is nominated for de top 5 small and medium enterprises (sth sth) award so they were interviewed and shot by de channel news asia team.


a japanese bohemian halter half skirt half pant.. DRESS?


brought to u by de highly creative team of beauties

2 days only and these are only some of de few highlights.. haha.. how happening can my life be? im very glad to be so preoccupied with so many happy things lately. i hope it doesnt mean de dark period is coming cus i believe dat when u gain some things.. u'll lose some as well. ok why am i so pessimistic.

anyways..

HAPPY BURFDAY CREAMY!
MUACKS~

alright gotta go meet her n shiling laters to celebrate ler. ciao~ :D

1:1

zhu tou's masterpiece

who can be as stupid as me. wanted to reg at driving centre yesterday. and i forgot to bring ic. GREAT. should've asked wx earlier. darn.

so, went to de movies instead. so half-hearted already. fortunately Just My Luck is a GREAT movie! go watch it, girls!

oh and i sort of miss school u know. definitely looking forward to seeing lynn and reb again on tues. we're heading to KBOX to scream our lungs out! wee~ cant wait la!

today at my little campus

today is one jumble of plain boredom & wacky fun at de childcare. ha.

at first..

sihuidegreat is feeling de blues.. WORKING BLUES..


then it was buay-tahan..



finally DOM. zZzZz..


after finishing my thang..

degreat was greeted by her FANSIE. hehe.


all climbed over me to take photos with me.. muahaha~


JUST CALL ME SUPERSTAR~!


SAY YOUR JEALOUS. PUHLEASE?

psst! lynn & reb. stop laughing & basketing.
just admit it - my kids are cuter. =P

intruders alert

urgh. been down with "stomach flu"? "food poisoning"? combination of both i guess. really horrigible la. happened on a not-so-lucky friday 2.30am in my now-haunted toilet.

vomit. diarrhoea. 2 days. 2 DAYS! and only feeling better today. went to de doc. but de medicine have more negative impacts than positive on me. hai.

i cant even see properly. some blackness mobbed my vision. den as if these are not torturing enough.. i was down with fever. arrhhh..

really cant imagine how i lived through that 2 days.

and de worst part is.. i was quarantined.. IN THE LIVING ROOM!

"HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME..?!"

do i make you proud?

Do I Make You Proud - Taylor Hicks


I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall

My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud?
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud?

I guess I've learned
To question is to grow
That you still have faith
Is all I need to know
I've learned to love
Myself in spite of me
And I've learned to walk
The road that I believe

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud?
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standin' out
But do I make you proud?

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud?

But the only question
Is do I make you proud?
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud?

Do I make you proud?

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you
Do I make you proud?

best shopping bachelorettes

huihui & reb
best shopping bachelorettes



went shopping with reb after sch again. uber fun and full of 'baskets' as usual. lol. having her arnd is really very.. uplifting (esp in this period of downcast) only reb can tolerate my great nonsense. muahaha. DON CHA.

differences

have u ever..

seen something u like alot..

but realise..

that it doesn't suit u..

afterall?

be it things or people..

differences are inevitable.

now when i think of my close gd friends..

it amazes me..

how we can have so much in common.

but after much tot..

there are differences too..

ha.

***

i donno why it bothers me so much..

when we are convinced that we are different..

very different in fact..

well at least to me..

hai.

i don understand why i miss u so much..

even though ur standing right in front of me.

blogging makes u realise some things sometimes..

ur movie review

de movie review

poseidon was nerve-wreckingly good - though i expected more for de ending. (4 stars)

over the hedge was super duper hilarious - a gd relief for de stressed outs. (5 stars)

the da vinci code was.. a huge question mark to me.. spare us all de cheem-only-christians/catholics-know-them terms. but then again, how to tell de story w/o mentioning these terms right. its an eye-opener la. a very out of this world movie. so far de most i-think-is-like-this or is-it-like-that movie ive ever seen in my life. how should i put it.. de "SHRUG-GEST" movie of the year. pardon me for my limited descriptive skills. haha.

this movie has become a hot topic among my classmates. so hot that im not even listening to my lectures now. or rather, i can hardly hear de lecturer talk. my classmates, a catholic & another a christian, started explaining to me. made me wanna read dat bk. but dey told me not to buy it cos dey feel its like paying money to de person who despises their God. but den i feel like understanding more. so jessica, nxt time do share wif me yea? haha. if ur allowed to watch de movie.

this thurs is x-men 3. look out for more reviews in time to come. lol.

butterflies in my stomach

whenever im reminded abt yesterday's incident,
i'll feel butterflies in my stomach.. urgh.

great start

yays.

1 module completed. *ding ding ding*

and our group presentation was awesome. highest mark. happy~

kudos to jasmine, faezah, lynn and rebecca for being such great ppl to work with! :)

the next chapter

clarinetist.blogspot.com was born in 05.2003

when i read de archives, i cant help but ridicule at my naive writings.
i can be so drama and exaggerating lor. *shakes head*
then this made me think.. now when i write, do i write funny things also?
maybe when my blog turns 8 then i'll know. haha.

changed to a new add cos im a clarinetist no more ma. not so 贴切 so changed to my fave - de great. (^.^)v

today woke up at 10.30 feels so shuang. cos RARELY got chance to slp till this late. i love LABOUR DAY.

my weekly agenda goes like this..

monday : work at childcare
tuesday : study
wednesday : study
thursday : organ lesson + work at childcare
friday : study
saturday : organ tutoring
sunday : piano lesson

very happening right.

and i think once i study, i'll slim down. everyone's been complaining i become skinnier liao. hai. i got eat regularly one ok.

been in a very tired state these days. donno is bcos become busier liao or bcos go out too much.

most of de time im spending time outdoors.. with ex-colleagues, poly frens, sec sch frens, current frens.. like almost everyday got ppl to meet. although i feel tired, i wont cancel my appointments with them cos they're equally impt to me.

so everytime i reach home, there'll be less or no time for practices and homework. then i'll feel very.. whats dat word? hm.

i reckon this is why i fail in certain things. inadequate attention span for major things.

我真的不够用心，对吧?